Welcome! I am so thankful you are here.
Vulnerability. That word itself is so scary, it is something I have had to overcome and become quite comfortable with. See, I was quite Type A my entire life. That is, until I had my first son, Barrett. My little red-headed ball of joy and energy. Boy, did he teach me some hard but valuable lessons. The most important, being Type A- is OKAY. Not everything can be planned and prepared for, there is value in "rolling with the punches". I had settled into my Type A- minus role and had started to enjoy my new found non-perfectionist lifestyle. Then it happened, miscarriage happened. It rocked my heart and soul to the core. My whole being struggled to comprehend how I couldn't "give this baby what was needed?". This right here should have been my warning sign, but like most humans...moms I carried on with life and stuffed those thoughts and feelings down.
I mean I had a life, husband, toddler, job, etc. It was approximately one month later that I was fortunate to see two pink lines. This time it was different, I was so incredibly happy and terrified at the same time. I didn't talk about being pregnant, even to my husband until 8 weeks when we got to see that heartbeat. I didn't tell anyone outside of immediate family until 20 weeks, because of my fears. We were blessed with another baby boy, Boden.
Boden is my fighter, he has faced challenges since day one and has overcome them with a bull-headed nature and a smile. He is my mama's boy, rainBow babe, and forever a life lesson.
My boys, Barrett and Boden are the reason I have found myself here today, owner of Ridge + Valley Counseling. Through this blog I will share about my own perinatal experience, topics surrounding perinatal care, parenting, motherhood, marriage, etc.
I am asking others to be vulnerable and share the Ridges and Valleys of their journey alongside of me.
Much love and grace,
Type A- Mama
Alyssa Zube LCSW